Saturday, February 27, 2010

Snippets...


Home. Why is it so glorious? There is something so enriching and comforting about it. I had an extended weekend from school, due to some class cancellations, so I drove up Thursday night to spend it with my mom. The boys were in a hustle when I arrived, packing and collecting all of the traditional necessities for our yearly Lake Tahoe skiing expedition. Due to school, and Mom's new job, they were left to themselves (and Uncle John) for a weekend of manly adventures and daring stories, that I'm sure they'll later share with pride. Although I was sad I would be missing out on some endearing traditions, I was excited for them and looked forward to a peaceful stay at home, an adventure in its own way.

I love my men so much! Dad was bright and loving as he always is, making faces of pride mixed with little boyish excitement, as I walked through the door, applying his goofy hand gestures of love as he enfolded me in his arms and held my hand as we ran around on errands. My brother is growing so fast, in more ways than height (whew!). He is so confident, interesting, and funny...not to mention handsome. As he left Friday morning he gave me two hugs goodbye (not just one), an activity he used to shrink away from not too long ago. I love his quirky style...a little bohemian mixed with classic vintage (stop watch on a chain anyone?), and, not forgetting, his staple basketball shorts.

Anyway, they're off on their adventure and I am home with mom. Each night I stayed up late and chatted with my dearest friend. Refreshing and enlightening conversations about everything from room mates, to living situations next year, to God and His unfathomable majesty, to my future spouse, to music, to children and jobs, filled the family room and little restaurants we toddled around to. Fellowshiping with her helps me recognize a lot of the reasons why I am who I am. I inherited her passion for giving, pursuing, planning, and special-ifying things. She is such a good friend, full of initiative and thoughtfulness. I guess I didn't realize how special her gifts truly were, assuming all people were naturally thoughtful, pursuing in their relationships, and demonstrative with their love, until, as I grow older with more perspective, I now witness the ways my mom has not always been pursued or recognized (not always ill intentioned). Now I am also faced with similiar situations where I find great delight in giving, pursuing, and filling others, until I get discouraged with the rarity of such idealistic fellowship in return. But God has used these experiences as a "refinement" time, and Mom told me she is comfortable and confident with being a pursuer and enjoying people on the different levels of their friendship with her, not expecting in return. Interestingly, I feel the same way. If our dependence of happiness and security lies on people's assurance of us, or return of our love, we are merely robbing ourselves of the joy we have by giving to them in the first place. Praise the Lord that He does not somehow leave us to find our own way of fulfillment, for then we really would be
hopeless, and that He provides all that we could possibly need or desire in Himself. Everything else is just the cream!

Today we went to the Corner Bakery Cafe (one of my favorite little places to eat), made a quick stop at the beautiful store Anthropologie, and then I introduced her to one of the most brilliant films of the year, The Young Victoria. I love this film! Everything about it is so enchanting...the wardrobe, music, cinematography, Victoria's vivacious, bold, character, and Albert's strong, supportive one. What enraptured me the most is it is one of the examples of a British monarch actually loving and remaining faithful to the one they married (with all of the adultery, brutally arranged marriages, divorces, and other such scandals that have occurred in English history). Her fervor for her country, and his selflessness in joining her in its service inspires me and makes me want to read her biography and learn more about her beautiful rise to power, love story, and reign. And the heavy dose of Schubert (my favorite composer) made it all the more enjoyable.
I must admit, though, as I witnessed the opulence of the queen's life in the palace, I found myself quite glad that I am not so difficulty satisfied. Having just purchased a couple packs of old, brown, lined paper for lists and such, for Katherine and me, (from Anthropologie) I don't think I could have been more delighted! Little things give me great joy...I don't think I'd trade that ability for all of Buckingham palace.

This post had a lot of little snippets of ideas in it and I'm hoping to write more. I am in the habit of waiting for profundity to fall upon me before I write a post, which has led to my blog's emptiness, and am coming to realize profundity lies in little moments of God breathed life. Tomorrow I embark on another adventure...name: tackling Grandma's explosive, out of place, house, and putting it back to beauty in its newly renovated rooms.

Farewell dearlings! Call someone, leave them a note, or give them a hug to let them know you love them. You will be surprised how much more joy you might feel than even they do.

p.s. As soon as I order a battery for my camera you will be seeing quite a bit of photography. I want to integrate not just food for the thought, but food for the eyes.